Empty

gone

My womb emptied
And we held you for a brief moment
Marveling at your delicate, beautiful features.
Your dark hair,
Your long toes,
Your tiny nose,
Your perfect lips.

Too soon our arms were emptied,
No longer able to hold you,
To smell the top of your head,
To stroke your sweet skin,
Or kiss your soft cheeks.

Because you were also emptied,
Your little soul gone to that next place
Where I’m told there are no tears,
No suffering,
No pain.

A place of peace.
A place of joy.

A place that is full.

(Our son Elliott was stillborn on June 4 at 6:52am. He was absolutely beautiful and we miss him desperately. Thank you for your prayers and kind thoughts as we mourn this loss.)

27 thoughts on “Empty

  1. My heart aches and breaks with you in places that only loss mothers can know. My healing verses are found in the 2nd passage of Psalm 139. May comfort surround you like never before.

    Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
    8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
    9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
    10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
    11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
    12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

  2. As we all held that little guy, we knew he was being taken care of by at least four in Heaven: Jesus, Mana, Gram, and Kack. Not sure in that order….just kidding

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