Monthly Archives: June 2014

What Turning 40 Means To Me

Tomorrow¬†I turn 40. I was born at 1:03am, so I’ll be 40 as soon as I wake up. We’re right in the middle of a move, so the birthday stuff has kind of been on the back burner. Don’t even … Continue reading

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What To Expect When Your Friends Are Expecting…And You Aren’t

When I was pregnant a decade ago with my first batch of kids, I had lots of friends who were going through the same thing. We experienced¬†pregnancy cravings together, enjoyed one another’s baby showers, shared the good and bad advice … Continue reading

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A Picture is Worth a Thousand Breaths

When the nurse asked us if we’d like to hold our son after he was delivered, I had reservations. What if something was horribly wrong? Could I stand to hold the lifeless body of this person who just the day … Continue reading

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Lost

“We lost the baby.” I heard those words coming out of my mouth, and they left a bitter taste. Of course we didn’t lose him. He was right there, still inside of me. There was no heartbeat, but he wasn’t … Continue reading

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Empty

My womb emptied And we held you for a brief moment Marveling at your delicate, beautiful features. Your dark hair, Your long toes, Your tiny nose, Your perfect lips. Too soon our arms were emptied, No longer able to hold … Continue reading

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